Hindsight is 2020

I know everyone has been posting about what a year it’s been & it’s been no different for us— it was certainly a YEAR.
It started out wonderfully— In January we spent my birthday soaking up the sun in the Bahamas, my husband accepted a new job in February working for the local hospital system, & in March (right as the schools closed due to the pandemic) he began.

Then in April, due to the pandemic, my husband was furloughed for 3 months with the likelihood he’d be going back in June. We spent the spring/summer spending time as a family, I began to really put time & effort into my fashion Instagram (something I’d been wanting to do for a long time & a great creative outlet!), we started a garden, my husband built a shed, we painted some rooms in our house & we spent a lot of time outdoors.

At the end of June—all within one week—we found out I was pregnant, I lost the baby to an early miscarriage, & Sanford lost his job permanently.
It was the week that broke us & July was spent stressing, praying, scrambling, & trying to figure things out. It was really not a fun time to be around either one of us— we were jaded, hurt, & upset about the events that had transpired. Other difficult things emerged as well & it all just seemed like too much to have to deal with at once.
Sanford started frantically looking for jobs & I started looking for answers as to why it had taken us that amount of time to get pregnant & why we had lost the baby. I can’t say I really found those answers– but it did get me started into looking into my thyroid health & I am still on the journey of figuring that out.
The beginning of August we celebrated our 5 year anniversary & spent lots of time talking & praying about what we were going to do. The pandemic-unemployment was running out & we had savings but we didn’t know how long we could live on that.
Mid-August Sanford received a call from a local company about interviewing & within one week he interviewed, was offered the job, he accepted, & began. Everything about it, right down to his start date & salary, was a complete answer to prayer & we were ecstatic for the new opportunity.

Late September we found out I was pregnant again (I had a *feeling* & took a test a few days before I missed my period). I was excited but also quite anxious that it was going to turn into another loss.
We got our septic system/leach field updated in early October which would turn out to be super important & just in the nick of time because I would be spending most of my time with my head in the toilet for the next 3-4 months (thank God for these little *actually big* things that work out just when they’re supposed to!).

October through December was a blur of me throwing up, sleeping, & feeling like I was just trying to survive. Sanford’s new job was wonderful & allowed him to flex his hours so he would be available to take care of me & our son during the morning hours & then go back to work after our son went to sleep at night. He took such amazing care of me & I thank God everyday for a man who puts his family first & takes care of us so well. He is back to normal hours now as I’m beginning to feel a little better everyday.

I know I should probably wrap this up with something like “we learned a lot, we’re grateful for it, we’ve grown, etc.” and we have & we are grateful for the blessings & lessons that came out of this past year, but I’d just be happy to never have to go through another year like that again, as I’m sure most would say about 2020.

We’re looking forward to a healthy baby in the spring & whatever else 2021 may bring! 🧡